One thing that I have realized about myself and am trying to work on is that I live in the past. Meaning that I might not enjoy things as they are happening but ask me about them a few days, weeks or hours later and I will have the fondest of memories! I am trying to be a little less uptight about the way that I like things and just live and enjoy what is going on here and now. There are those instances though where all my efforts go out the window and I revert back to square one! This week was one of those times.
I had mentioned in my earlier posts that both my family and Josh’s parents came out to see us right after the accident. Since we don’t have our basement finished my parents stayed in a hotel but we had the rest of the group at our house. We had been wanting to get everyone out here for a while (especially since Josh’s folks live on the east coast) but these weren’t the circumstances we had planned to bring us all together. I felt totally unprepared to have house guests! We had planned to be out of town for the long weekend so we didn’t have that much food at the house and I hadn’t finished cleaning before we left. I found myself stressing out a lot about coordinating family schedules, meals, and entertainment (not that anyone was pushing me to be the party planner).
I am very lucky because both sides of the family get a long great and we really enjoy each other, but it was hard for me to break out of my stress funk and really enjoy almost everyone being out here at the same time. Especially since at the same time we are having to figure out the unexpected expenses that come with a car being totaled and I had a job interview thrown in too.
I don’t want to make it sound like I didn’t enjoy everyone but I was just thrown for a loop and had to break out of my routine of just the charles and I during the day (I have come to realize that I really don’t talk much during the day)! I have also realized that we lack seating space for a lot of people…these are things you don’t think of when it is just the two (or three) of you!
Anyway, everyone was set to leave tomorrow but my mom was having a lot of back issues so they decided to leave today so they could take more time to drive back. I kicked myself as it dawned on me how much I was going to miss having them around and that I really should have told myself to suck it up and enjoyed them while they were out here! I guess it’s a learning process! I really do love my family and love getting to share our life out here with them!
Do you ever deal with these feelings?
Oh and on a different note…
We went back to the cupcake place (so yummy) where the hubs and I had stopped on the way to California before the crash. I was so bummed after the crash when I realized that all of the cupcakes had ended up all over our car and stuff and we didn’t get to try any of them! This time we got another 1/2 dozen and I was a little nervous since you know what happened last time. But I am happy to report that we made it back safely and the cupcakes were supper yummy!!
Oh and please excuse my random post..it has been a long week!