This has been a very turbulent week! Every time I would sit down to write an update something else would change drastically. So here is my attempt to feel you all in on what has been going on. I first want to say how much I appreciate all the support and prayers..you guys have made this process so much more bearable and I can’t thank you enough. Every time I would start getting stressed out I would be quickly reminded that God is in control and that people are praying!
I am excited to say that we aren’t out of the game yet this cycle. On Tuesday I was a mess waiting for the nurse to call with my blood and ultrasound results. It didn’t help that when I had my ultrasound there were still at least 10 follicles but some had gotten smaller. I find it funny that when I am anxious for them to call it seems like it takes forever for the phone to ring! They finally called around 3:30 and the nurse informed me that my estrogen had dropped to 17..not good! After hearing that number I was holding my breath waiting for her to say that this was it and this cycle wasn’t going to work. So the next thing that she said shocked and surprised me. Nurse told me that she had talked to the doc and he said to take 225 IU of menopur for two days and then come back on Thursday for blood and ultrasound again.
Honestly, I was happy to hear this and trying to be optimistic but I had major doubts, I think I was just waiting for the call that said it was over. I had asked the nurse if she really thought we might be able to use this cycle and she said that is what they were hoping for and that if my estrogen turned around it was a good possibility. I don’t know what it feels like to be pregnant but I do have to say that with 10 follicles over 10 mm and growing the pressure on my lower abdomen is crazy and I have to pee all the time!
When I went back on Thursday the ultrasound showed that the follicles had grown some and the ultrasound tech said that hopefully the estrogen had kicked back in! Usually I get really anxious for the nurses call later that afternoon and I really felt that God blessed me by not having to wait that day. I went to bible study and while we were at lunch around 12:30 (which is way earlier than they usually call) I spoke to the nurse and she said my estrogen had went up to 125 and to keep doing the 225IU of Menopur for two days and then come back on Saturday.
That brought a little bit of hope back into my life which all came crashing down when on Thursday night I started bleeding! At first it was really light and I knew it was way too soon for my period but when it was in full force Friday morning I was freaking out! At that point I knew it was all over, I mean I was bleeding and in my mind there was no way this cycle would continue. I talked to the Nurse and she said she though it was break-through bleeding and to keep doing the meds and still come in on Saturday for blood and ultrasound. Friday night it got lighter and I thought this was good but Saturday morning I was still in period mode. All during this time I kept praying for God to give me peace and that if this cycle was over to just let me hear the bad news so I could start to get over it.
The hubs and I were heading down to DC after my appointment on Saturday for one last trip to see his folks before we move and I was getting nervous because of all the unknown’s! My ultrasound on Saturday showed that I had less follicles and only one was mature (the last one had two at 19mm). I took this as a bad sign and when I talked to the nurse while I was there she was baffled at what was going on. It’s always fun when they say “I have no idea what is going on…i’ve never seen this before”! They assured me that they would know more after they got my blood results back and that it was okay to go out of town. As we drove out of town I was convinced that they would call and say that they didn’t know how but it was my period and we would have to start over. Keep in mind that I haven’t ovulated yet so it wouldn’t make sense for it to be AF!
When the nurse called she said that my estrogen has gone up to 280 and to continue to take 225IU on Saturday night and 75IU on Sunday and then come back in on Monday. I asked her about the bleeding and she said that the doc wasn’t surprised since my estrogen had dropped so low and that it should stop as my estrogen goes up! Whew..what a relief! Sure enough, the bleeding stopped the next day.
I went back in yesterday having no idea how much longer it was going to be before I would reach the time for the IUI. When they did my ultrasound the tech commented on how many follicles I had and when I looked at the paper I had at least 15! Only one was mature at 25mm and there was another close behind at 17.2. The rest were in the 16-10mm range. When the nurse called yesterday she said my estrogen was at 720..holy cow! I have never had it this high before! I did the HCG last night and I go in on Wednesday for the IUI! I made the hubs watch the video for the shot again just as a refresher and I know he did it right because I am supper sore today! Originally I was suppose to take a super shot which was double the HCG but due to the extreme amount of follicles the nurse didn't want to take the chance of several releasing so I just did one dose. My biggest prayer right now is that I will have released when I go in on Wednesday for the release ultrasound!
Well there it is..I will try and keep you all better informed and thank you all so much for your prayers and support (and for reading this super long post)! I have tremendous peace about all of this and whether we get preggo or not I know God is in control! I did tell the hubs though that if I don’t get preggo this cycle I am running the SF marathon with him at the end of July. I know I am crazy and I will have about a month to train but I don’t care..I know I will need something to look forward to :)
Have a great day!