I am sorry to make this such a short post but we are in the midst of packing to head out on the road for our finial trip to Utah tomorrow. I don’t know how much internet coverage I will have during the next 6 days on the road and I couldn’t leave you all hanging on the results from the preggo test today.
As you can see from the title it was not good news. I have to say I wasn’t surprised, I hadn’t really felt any of the symptoms during the last two weeks. I am not saying this as a “poor me” thing but I have moved into the phase of finding it hard to believe that it will ever happen, yet totally trusting God that in his timing IT WILL (I just have to stop letting my impatience get in the way)! Both the Hubs and I were defiantly disappointed but we are looking forward to seeing what the Utah health system has to offer and who knows maybe a new set of eyes on my case will be helpful! Don’t get me wrong, the doctors and nurses out here have been nothing but amazing!!
It is nice not to have to coordinate how to stay monitored in NJ for the first trimester while living in Utah. Although I would be lying if I didn’t say that I would rather be pregnant and having to deal with that..but again..I truly believe that God knows and has best!
I was really anxious for the call this afternoon so I sat down and read my bible while I waited and God really showed me his peace amidst the unknown!
As a way of grieving the bad news I went for a 5 1/2 mile run after the call (I haven't ran that far in a few months) and although it kicked my but it was great! I had to give myself something to look forward too so I singed up for the San Fran 1/2 marathon (I was going to do the full but there is no way to train for that in less than a month)! I am hoping that once we get out to Utah I will be able to get set up with a new doc and get back on the baby making band wagon!
Thank you all so much for your support through this all! Everyone of you encourages me and helps me keep going through all the stressful and disappointing results.